Umm so I just felt the need to express my love and appreciation for the black man. Unfortunately for me, I get too nervous that I'm gonna make a fool of myself in front of them that I either get all red when I'm trying to flirt or I avoid eye contact all together.

Had to share that since a VERY attractive man with dreads is sitting in my lobby at work right now.........**sigh**

Doesn't help that I have a boyfriend and I keep seeing these hott black men in my hotel...... not that I would ever cheat, I just don't feel right even looking at other guys like that. Oh well, now that that's outta my system...

SO I've been to the ER twice in 4 days. The first time I thought I had strep, they prescribed penicillin even though the test came back negative because:
1. I looked like I had strep
2. I felt like I had strep
3. I had been in contact with someone with strep

( ugh... )

I never want to go home ever again. I keep thinking going back to visit my family will get better in time but it only seems to get worse. The time I can actually stand to be around my family keeps getting substantially shorter. Nevermind the fact that I've decided I can't live with anyone either. When my lease ends I need to find a place all on my own, far away from my family.......Maybe part of this has to do with the fact that I've been off my anti-depressants for a little while now. I didn't realize I was in this bad of shape until now.